Hello

Hi I am  Boris and I was born in Brussels, Belgium in 1990. I grew up with my mother and two older sisters, because ‘dad’ was never there and certainly not for me. It’s no wonder that I went gay, I mean, I always knew that I am gay not just because of my dad. I was always searching for a “male-looking-figure” you know?

 

 I have created a big struggle  in my head since my parents broke-up when i was kid.  I was 6 years old and went with my family to Spain for summer vacation at my grandparent’s house. My mom and dad were already fighting, and suddenly decided to go back home to Brussels. The ‘problem’ was that I was the mini favorite of my mom so she decided to take me home and let my two older sisters with my grandparents’ parents in Spain. Oh, I forgot to tell, we went back by car… which means we had more than 24 hours to drive…. So, we drove the whole day… only long roads that never stops. We finally stopped at a “Campanille” once it was night. It's like a sideway hotel where you can eat and sleep.

 

After the long distances we drove we were hungry so we went to the restaurant of the hotel and it’s at that moment that I never could forget the nightmare started. My mother was suddenly crying, left the table and ran as far as she could. My dad didn’t know what to do, told me “wait here” and went running after my mom. I was left alone at a table outside in the dark for a long time. Like maybe more than 1 hour? Then my dad came back alone, he didn’t know where mommy was. So, he put me in the room of the hotel, put the tv on and went back searching for mom. But mommy stopped the car, and went away. So, I was left alone (again) for the whole night…with the movie “Jeanne D ’arc” on tv. I was literally traumatized. Afterwards . I was too young to understand what was happening to me but my body was talking. I have got multiple health issues and I remember that I grew up really fast during that period.

 

At the age of 8 (1998), just before the internet was officially released, I found in my mothers’ room some books with naked pictures of men and women. It was actually an old dating method before grindr lol. So, the people send a picture of themselves with some text about what they are looking for and what they like. It was actually funny because they also added their phone number. It was a magazine that was released every week I think, I don’t know I was too young, you remember? And while looking at all these funny pictures I will always remember how I preferred looking at these beautiful dicks rather than the boobs from the females. Voila why I always knew I would be gay.

 You can notice some scarfs on my body and my face, they are like pictures to me about my past struggles and bad luck in life. So today when I have found a good place in life They remind me about my struggles and enhance my gratitude for what i have now.. Which makes me enjoy every day more! I don’t have any good family relationships, but I know that I can always count on my boyfriend, friends and my wonderful friend colleague and neighbor David who has introduced me to Tantra the right way of life. I have met a good fate!